I swear I live in a constant state of uneasiness when it comes to decorating and investing in our home. I am currently home all day all week (pretty much), so it’s not like changes we make in our home won’t be fully appreciated, but I’m always paralyzed by the idea that we will 100% not live here forever. If only I could predict the future! Alas, life goes on and we take it as it comes.
In my bio on this very blog, I talk about my cravings for change—no matter how big or small. This has presented itself in such different ways depending on my stage in life and happens pretty frequently for me. Right now, I want to move to Colorado. I also want to partner with a home builder and make all the design choices for new builds. Or open my own brick-and-mortar retail store. 😂 This season of change is all about big ideas, apparently, but in a couple weeks most of these big, expensive, fairly unrealistic ideas will pass.
One somewhat realistic craving I’m having is a need to revamp the interior of our home (again). I dream up new paint colors and pretty moldings and stunning new light fixtures, etc. Most weeks, it’s the spare bedroom—the only one we have. Eventually, we pray that will be a nursery, but in the meantime it’s not as beautiful as I’d like for it to be for Ryan’s family and my sister (our most frequent guests). This week, I have our living room and kitchen on the brain. I’d like to repaint/ refurnish our living room and retile pretty much everything in our kitchen, plus add some wallpaper.
Both would take some serious labor and would spiral into a hundred other little changes, but it always come back to…what would the next owners of this house think? Would they like these choices? THAT, my friends, is a dangerous way to think. This beauty is our home. We have to live with the design choices and hopefully we don’t choose anything so punchy that the next owners won’t be able to picture themselves living here, too. Yet sometimes even putting holes in the walls feels like we’re risking it a little too much.
I don’t like this hesitation of mine/ours, but I find myself noticing my parents saying things like “you won’t be here forever,” so at least I can track where it stems from! 😂However, we know in our hearts that this home just can’t fit the family we dream about having someday. For Penny, Ryan, and I, this home is so perfect and we loooooove it so much, truly. But even adding a single little person to the mix would be a little cramped. However, we could be here for many, many years. We have no idea what the future will throw at us. So, for now, I think I need to invest in some home design decisions. 🙂
If you’re still reading, thank you. This rambling mess is constantly on my heart. I can’t imagine myself ever staying in a single house for too long (which literally makes me tear up just thinking about), so I’m always hesitant to make big changes. Are you the same way? Or do you plan to stay in a home for the long haul? I’d love to hear others’ opinions on this as it’s something that is always in the back of my mind.
Anna-every day I do that and even worse when hubby is traveling which can be very dangerous. I want different pendants over the island; when can I have some remove the wall paper of the extra bathroom (because I’m not removing wallpaper anymore); should I have the kitchen cabinets painted; when can we re-do the bathroom downstairs and the bar. So much I want to do.
That’s a great point. If I’m alone, it’s 1000x worse. And I don’t blame you with the wallpaper! Get someone over there to do it for you. 🙂
I have interior design ADD and want to change everything all the time.
We bought a home that was for closed upon so it was very price-right in a very good neighborhood, but had ALOT of work that needed to be done.
We saved and saved and ate frozen bean burgers for awhile until we finally had enough to overhaul the whole house. I chose simple colors for the walls and tile/trim like white and grey and told my hubby we would bring the color in with rugs and pillows and curtains and art…
For me, it’s a lot easier and cheaper to change up pillows and decor than to paint a wall a new color every few years. I love rearranging furniture, too, to bring a fresh new vibe to a stale room.
Xoxo
Laura
So much saving required to do anything major! But it sounds like you two made such a smart choice buying that house.
I love the idea of colorful textiles to flavor a space. Our living room is currently neutral and I can’t switch up the furniture too much as it’s a very narrow room with windows on 3 out of the 4 walls. My brain is spinning with ideas! But I’ll likely just switch out certain elements. 🙂
Thank you so much for reading, Laura!
Look at TINY puppy Penny!!!
SO little!!! I can’t believe how small she used to be. 😥
We plan to stay in our home for a very long time but even then I hesitate to put a hole in the walll or pick too drastic of a color because I think “will I get sick of it too soon” or it will go out of style and I’ll be stuck with it, or “ but if we remodel then it won’t look right.” I need to get that mentality out of my head and just do what I want to do!
You. Are. Speaking. Straight. To my. Heart.
I didn’t even mention cohesiveness in this essay and I wish I would have. I struggle with that just as much as anything else. “Will this one choice change the entire vibe of our home?” I feel you, sister! xx